i dont know what to do.

well we got the test results back today. they weren't normal. our baby boy has a serious disease called trisomy 18. Trisomy 18 is uncompatible with life. Our baby boy isn't gonna make. on top of i have too much amniotic fluid and if i try to carry him to term i will die. so were inducing labor this friday so we can get a chance to welcome our baby boy and tell him we love him and say goodbye.

It's a BOY!!

28 weeks


a few days ago we found out it's a boy. were really excited. they found a few things wrong but they're fixable so no worries. i have a amniocenstisis this week to test him to make sure everything is ok. i'll keep the blogs coming.

Total shock

well i finally got in to see a doctor today. im gonna go with midwives. i really like the care im getting. i have an ultrasound soon to get measurements and stuff cause im measuring big. so i'll keep everyone informed.

why?? why so soon??

why does life have to be so hard. you think you have your life under control and then it's instantly changed. it seems like just yesterday i was sitting at the end of my mom's bed begging her to let me go outside before i did my homework. and now im begging for her to come back to me. it's hard to live a normal life when the one person who loved you unconditionally from birth is suddenly gone. i have no one who really knows me anymore. who would throw me a baby shower in another state and pay for me to come there just so she could see her baby girl pregnant with her first baby. who else will fly across the states to see her only daughter go through labor for the first time and be there for any and everything she asks. deal with her dumb mistakes she made as a teenager and still love her inside and out. what mother would send thier child away in hopes that she would learn how to deal with life instead of take it out on herself? my mom did. she loved me when i was dumb. she loved me when i was sick. when i left to go to school she supported me all the way and was so proud of me. and im glad and blessed that i was able to be there for her in her last month the way she needed me. and take care of her the way she took care of me. i only wish i had longer to say goodbye. i feel as if she was taken away too soon. i still wake up and hear her laugh. or see her face when she first held my baby. it was amazing and im glad she got to see me go through things that she helped me get past. i know she looks down on me everyday and helps me through things still. i'll always love my mom. and she will be missed by alot of people. she touched alot of peoples lives and i can't wait to see her again. i love you mom.

walking pic as promised!!!

october 22nd.

oct. 22nd is when we find out the gender of new baby. im so excited. just had to share that.

she's walking!!!

Natonya has been walking for about a week now. Everyday she gets better and better. all day today she's been standing up on furniture then taking steps off of that. its been crazy to watch. its like yesterday she was being propped up on a pillow so i could take christmas pictures of her. but she was moving too fast to catch a good picture. but i'll post it in the morning cause my phone just died haha. love you all.

17 weeks pregnant!!!

Quick to trot

well natonya is 9 months now. time has flewn by. she has 2 teeth now yay!!! she's just as happy as ever. mommy is trying to follow her steps. im on my way to california tomorrow. me and natonya will be gone until the 23rd. i need this vacation. im losing my mind here. i need to just get away and think. i wont be updating for awhile because i wont have the computer. but ass soon as i get home i will be putting up pictures for sure. love you all. wish us a safe trip. ttyl.

just gets worse

natonya 8 months
baby number 2

day by day i just get worse. i wish it was different but its not. i try to stay sane for my little family. i just seriously need a vacation. im not gonna be able to do much soon. so im glad i at least will have fun for our anniversary. hopefully. we need to get away. and natonya needs a break too. haha. but she's doig good and so is baby number two. im 8 weeks pregnant and im due march 17th.

i just dont know anymore.

im just really sad today. im really missing my mom. and im needing some love from family. im too far. i need a vacation. i really want to move. Natonya was sick this whole past week and last weekend. she's just getting better today. it's been hard. new baby is doing good. im due march 17th. (my grandmother's birthday) right around the time my mom passed too. this is gonna be harder then i thought. i wish i could just go and talk to her. like nothing ever happened.

so it's my birthday!!!

yay for me. i'm 22 now. crazy. natonya is 7 1/2 months already. thats crazy too haha... i cant believe how fast she's growing its like i blink and she's off again doing something else. she's such a little grown up. but were not doing anything for my birthday we might go out to eat tomorrow and shop a little. but yeah peaceout.

IM PREGNANT!!!

yup. im pregnant with baby #2!! were so excited. im 9 weeks pregnant. i'll definantly keep everyone posted on this event. especially when we find out if its a boy or girl. were hoping for a boy so cross your fingers haha. what an awesome early birthday present.

NATONYA!!!!

she's such a fast crawler now.... she's into everything. she's almost 7 months!!! its so crazy. for being so little she has a big personality. she has a doctors appt monday so i'll update everyone on her stats then. i'll update again soon... peace out

all done...

everything is done and put together... bleh... moving is stressful and hard... i need a vacation. im glad my cali trip is coming up... i really miss it.

finally moved!!!

sorry i havent been keeping up on here. its been stressful moving and trying to keep a baby entertained haha... anywho. here's the update. We just moved in to our new place on friday and were still unpacking. And Natonya is crawling!!!! yay!! she's sitting herself up after crawling all over too. she's getting faster everyday. She said dada today too while in the bath tub. It's getting so exciting watching her grow more and more day after day. She's actually moving pretty fast growing so tall. Well thats all for today. I'm off to bed. It's been a long weekend. Now that I found the computer I'll make sure to keep everyone posted. peace out.

6 months already???

so natonya turns 6 months on thursday. i cant believe its been 6 months already. she's doing so much lets see if i can try to name them all. she sits up alone. she has been for about a month and a half. she rolls from tummy to back and back to tummy since she was 4 months. she's trying so hard to crawl. i think anyday now she'll be crawling. she holds her own bottle!!! so awesome. and she loves all kinds of food haha. she's such a happy baby. i pick up her pictures we got done for her 6 months on thursday so i'll be sending those out to family. so if you guys can email me your addresses i'll get them out soon. just wanted to update you all. peace out. p.s. that picture is of her at 5 months.

DAY!!!!

well this is my blog for our family. so here we go. well my name is eliza. im married to kory. we've been married for 1 year and 7 months. and we recently had a baby girl on november 29th 2007... her name is natonya. she is so beautiful. were so happy that she's in our family. everyone loves her. my mom loved her so much. she recently passed away from cancer. she had been fighting it for 13 years, i guess God needed her. i miss her so much. she was my best friend ever. she knew more about me then i know about myself. ive been having a really hard time with it but im doing better. my husband has been a big help in getting me through this tough time. he's the love of my life. and im so happy were together. were moving soon and im gonna try my hardest to keep up on this blog haha. peace

R.I.P mom

5/6/50 - 3/2/08

MEMORIES OF MOTHER


How well i do remember
standing at my mothers knee
and all the fun and happy times
as she was raising me.

How well i do remember
the love we always shared
and all the things she said and did
that showed she really cared.

How well i do remember
the day God called her home
she slipped into his loving arms
and i felt so alone.

Now my heart will carry memories
of the love she gave to me
until we meet again in heaven
where the best is yet to be.




I’ll always love you mom. thank you for teaching me how to be the best woman, wife, and mom i can possibly be.